Sunday, February 13, 2005

Confusion and Pain

I haven't written for a long while. In any of my blogs (Not that I have more than two... but still). Lately, I've been more worried about the home life than the blogging community. And work has gotten so wonderful that I don't NEED to spend hours playing online anymore. No offense to any of you. Hold on... Coffee run...

That's another thing... I've always hated the taste of coffee. It made me, litterally, get sick to my stomache to taste it. I'd make a funny face, wipe my tongue off, and drink anything else that was near-by to get the taste out of my mouth. It was that bad to me. Now, I've drank three cups of coffee (starting my fourth) and am actually liking the taste. It might have something to do with the fact that it's more like "Beastie Boy Coffee" than real coffee. I take 3/4ths cup of coffe and fill the rest of the cup with a lot of Hazlenut and Chocolate liquid Creamer and a lot of sugar.

Anyhow about home life. I've been having a few issues with Mr Q. He's gotten weird and I've gotten emotional since Butterfly Girl died. It's like my emotions couldn't handle things anymore and have just exploded. Gods help us if I ever get pregnant. Mr Q is left feeling confused because I'm crying and I'm left angry because of all the tears. I really hate crying. It's not useful and no matter how many tears you shed, it doesn't solve the problem. Not really. It may pause it for a little bit....

I'm muddling through it though... slowly.... but surely.........

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

Grumpy Skitz

Woke up in the middle of the night angry. Very angry. This morning I'm no better. I've managed to snap at Mr Q twice and chastise him a few times already.

I think for breakfast I'm going to have my jumbo Hershey's bar and a hot cup of Chocolate. Followed maybe by ice cream drizzled with chocolate syrup... or maybe just a cone of chocolate ice cream. Hell... anyone have a chocolate drip? Might be easier for me.